I know now why I'm feeling BV

If only I know how to handle money..
If only I have enough save money..
If only I have a stable job.. You will get the operation that you needed.
We don't have to ask for help.

It's not that I'm choosing my work first. I wanted to take care of it.
I wanted you to get your operation immediately. I don't want you to
suffer anymore. I want you to get well. Your the only one I have now.

I feel so useless when it comes to you. I feel that I should be the one
taking care of you now. I'm turning 26 this year yet I haven't
accomplished anything.

Im so USELESS! :(